Zephyr

"So what is it about her that you are so in love with, Zephyr?" asked Faraday.

"Huh, what do you mean? Where did that come from? " I was surprised by his question that came outta no where. Surely he had been waiting for quite some time to drop the bomb, I guess he took the chances when Thalia left to the washroom.

"You know exactly what I meant. You are CLEARLY in love with her man, spill the beans already!" he hollered.

"Is it that obvious?" I chuckled. "Well, fair enough. I am in love with her, but do I really need a reason for that?"

As if he was surprised by my honesty, Faraday took a step back dramatically and grinned right after recovering from his "shock" state. "Of course you do, everyone is in love with someone for a reason! John is in love with Priscilla because she was his childhood friend, dear old Cinna is in love with Mike because he's in the basketball team, it has got to be a reason! So really, what's yours?"

"Fine...let me try." I closed my eyes and recalled everything about Thalia, every moment that we both shared and every words that she said now and then. I took my time to dig into my memories for an answer to Faraday's question.

"I don't know man, I really don't. If it has to be that one thing that I can name you right now, I guess I have none... It's everything about her. I love her presence, it's comforting, though she's never good in finding the right words to say or the right thing to do, but I just love that about her." I said whatever came into my mind.
"I'm a man who has been into many relationships, Faraday, you know that. But for the first time ever, I'm taking my time on a girl and I guess it's because I want her to have the best of everything. I have never been so desperate to see a girl's smile or laugh or even grin at anything at all, even if it has nothing to do with me. I have never wanted to make someone feel happy this badly before, and I wish I could have done more to take away whatever that saddens her."
"I am feeling lots, and lots of things that I have never felt before. So am I in love, Faraday? Yes I am, but I couldn't tell you with what, because that's all I'm feeling right now and if it's not love, I don't know what it is. She deserves to be happy, to be hugged and kissed every second, every minute in everyday, and I wish I could give her all that." I stopped, because I knew I have said more than my emotions can handle.

Faraday seemed to be surprised by my answer, guess I couldn't blame him for that cause I didn't expect this either. "Even if it's not mutual?" he asked with hesitancy.

"Even if it's not mutual." I smiled.

Glad

"Do you remember when.."

I believe you must have came across these moments as well. Just a couple of friends going out for a tea or what we would call "yumchar session" over here, and without any pre-planning, someone drops that question and the next thing you know, all of you are walking down the memory lane. From college to high school, and from high school all the way back to elementary school. The dramas, the fights, the times of our lives at that point of time. 

This isn't another emotional post of mine, worry not. It's just one of those moments when you are truly thankful of some occurence and as of now, I'm just glad that it happened, that's all.

I guess by the end of the day, nothing will ever be lost as long as we remember it. 

Hey, do you remember when was the last time you actually caught up with your friends? 

Well, I do. :) 

-Kenneth

5.33 a.m.

It's 5.33 a.m. here in Taiwan. 

I'm currently on a family trip and there's no justification as to what leads to this post.

Maybe it's for the fact that the trip is about to come to an end and I'll be on my way home, or maybe it's something else.

It's funny, how I have begun to grow sick of this place and feeling terribly homesick, but there's just something back home that makes me want to stay away, kind of want to stay on a trip for a long, long time.

Three of my friends are leaving to Australia to further their studies in less than 2 weeks time. The thought of it really saddens me. You see, they are not just any friends, but the ones who have always been around. Bryan, who has been my best buddy since high school. Bobby, who has been my close friend for 13 years and Brian, who I've been seeing almost everyday for the past few years. It's not going to be the same without them. No one likes changes, and certainly neither do I.

Then it hits me. It's not just them who will be leaving. Few years down the road, everyone will be leaving this circle, even I myself, will be flying to UK. There's just no stopping to this, because we all gotta move on somehow, and there's no promise that we will ever find something like this again. We can look back, smile, laugh, joke about the times we used to have, but one thing for sure, we can never relive those moments. So have I treasured those times enough to bid farewell? 

Up to this point, you probably be laughing at this silly post. "Come on, this is just part and parcel of life."

I know, believe me I do, but all I'm saying is this part of life is really a pain in the ass, a pain in the heart.

I can never be good with farewells, I guess this is the part they tried to warn me about growing up. 

-Kenneth