I've blogged a couple of times since 2010, mainly due to the influence of the others, blogging was kinda the "in" thing back then. Then twitter came in and everyone moved their complaints and their breakfasts over, so have I. But along with the complaints and breakfasts, I moved my emotional craps there as well, which was what my blogs were centralized, you know, the typical high-school boy with a lot of heartbreaks, heh.
To give you an idea, I remember writing a bloody long post about this crush I had, how we met, how she affected me and blah, so on. Don't bother finding it now, I have covered all possible records, no way in hell I'm leaving any tracks behind!
Okay that's enough for my ex, as for now, there are many reasons that led to this creation, but I guess the main trigger is the fact that 2013 is coming to an end, and the fact that I have so much to say but no where else to do it.
I wouldn't say 2013 has been a bad year, nor would I say it has been a great year, but one thing for sure, it has been a really, really long year. I've gained too much and lost too much along the way that it seems to strike a balance between both, it's not going to be easy to put them in words, but I'll try.
In the year 2013, I've lost my high school life. I took my first step into the adulthood, and one step away from the comfort zone. I've broke free from the routine of getting up-go to school-study-exams, and like how you will hear it from everyone else, you will miss that routine, we all miss that routine.
Taking a step into the adulthood is not as fun as it seems to be, sure, you get a little freedom you have been yearning for since high school, you get your parents off your back for a little bit, but in exchange of all that freedom, you starting to become the master of your own life and trust me, it's not a pleasant feeling. Every choice and every decision you make will reflect back on how your life is going to be for the rest of the year, or in some cases, for the rest of your life. This is a lesson I have learned, with the price of losing my high school life.
In the year 2013, I've gained strength. As bad as the first step may sound, I got through it. It was difficult at first, nothing came any easier afterwards, but along the way while triumphing over the obstacles, I've begun to see more clearly where one's true strength really lies, and it's with friends and family. Of course, having an ambition or dream may built your strength, it may stir your desire to reach for it, but knowing that someone will not hesitate to pick up a hammer and smash the wall when your back is against it, is what keeps pushing me forward. In the year 2013, I've learned the importance of family and genuine friendships and I'm blessed to say that I have a bunch of them who would show up by my doorstep in a heartbeat when I need it.
In the year 2013, I've gained new friendships, the ones that share my dream. I have a dream, I'm not saying it's greater than anyone else's, it don't have to be, because it's my own or so I thought. I dream to be the key of change to this generation, to be able to impact and shake the current generation, to be great enough to inspire for a change. To be honest, this dream was fading as time goes by, it flickers when reality tells you how small you are and how little you can do, that dream was fading away, then I met them- Youth Inspire Youth. It's an organization formed by people different in ages, different in religions, different in areas, but all share the same dream. Here I found myself a place where my dreams belong, these people, they are amazing in every single way that I could describe, they dare to dream and dare to declare it.
Before I met them, I thought I was fool. When I met them, I found myself a bunch of fools, but this bunch of fools are going to make my dreams, our dreams come true. As how Steve Jobs will say it, The people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world..Are the ones who do. We may start off small, and it's going to a long way to get there, but we will get there, someday, somehow.
In the year 2013, I've lost a friend. Her name was Hui Ching. I met her through YIY, and we have only known each other for 6 months, it's not long in a friendship's time scale, but it was enough to realize how kind and innocent she was, how selfless she was to her friends, it was enough for me to mourn over her death, it was enough to take me down and realize how fragile a life can be. My only regret is that I have not paid enough effort get to know her more, and I envy those who knew her long enough to realize how beautiful her soul was. In the year 2013, I have lost a friend, but heaven has gained a new angel, and I pray that she will watch over us as we march forward, and I pray that her family will be fine and healed as soon as possible. I was never a religious person, but at this point of time, I choose to believe that she belongs in heaven now, so rest in peace, Hui Ching. You will be missed.
Most importantly, I have learned to reach for my dreams. I have learned that to have a different and better life, I have to do something different. So this time, instead of wishing for 2014 to treat me better, 2014, I'll treat you right.
Woah, this is a bloody long first post,
Well, it's a start.
-Kenneth
I wouldn't say 2013 has been a bad year, nor would I say it has been a great year, but one thing for sure, it has been a really, really long year. I've gained too much and lost too much along the way that it seems to strike a balance between both, it's not going to be easy to put them in words, but I'll try.
In the year 2013, I've lost my high school life. I took my first step into the adulthood, and one step away from the comfort zone. I've broke free from the routine of getting up-go to school-study-exams, and like how you will hear it from everyone else, you will miss that routine, we all miss that routine.
Taking a step into the adulthood is not as fun as it seems to be, sure, you get a little freedom you have been yearning for since high school, you get your parents off your back for a little bit, but in exchange of all that freedom, you starting to become the master of your own life and trust me, it's not a pleasant feeling. Every choice and every decision you make will reflect back on how your life is going to be for the rest of the year, or in some cases, for the rest of your life. This is a lesson I have learned, with the price of losing my high school life.
In the year 2013, I've gained strength. As bad as the first step may sound, I got through it. It was difficult at first, nothing came any easier afterwards, but along the way while triumphing over the obstacles, I've begun to see more clearly where one's true strength really lies, and it's with friends and family. Of course, having an ambition or dream may built your strength, it may stir your desire to reach for it, but knowing that someone will not hesitate to pick up a hammer and smash the wall when your back is against it, is what keeps pushing me forward. In the year 2013, I've learned the importance of family and genuine friendships and I'm blessed to say that I have a bunch of them who would show up by my doorstep in a heartbeat when I need it.
In the year 2013, I've gained new friendships, the ones that share my dream. I have a dream, I'm not saying it's greater than anyone else's, it don't have to be, because it's my own or so I thought. I dream to be the key of change to this generation, to be able to impact and shake the current generation, to be great enough to inspire for a change. To be honest, this dream was fading as time goes by, it flickers when reality tells you how small you are and how little you can do, that dream was fading away, then I met them- Youth Inspire Youth. It's an organization formed by people different in ages, different in religions, different in areas, but all share the same dream. Here I found myself a place where my dreams belong, these people, they are amazing in every single way that I could describe, they dare to dream and dare to declare it.
Before I met them, I thought I was fool. When I met them, I found myself a bunch of fools, but this bunch of fools are going to make my dreams, our dreams come true. As how Steve Jobs will say it, The people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world..Are the ones who do. We may start off small, and it's going to a long way to get there, but we will get there, someday, somehow.
In the year 2013, I've lost a friend. Her name was Hui Ching. I met her through YIY, and we have only known each other for 6 months, it's not long in a friendship's time scale, but it was enough to realize how kind and innocent she was, how selfless she was to her friends, it was enough for me to mourn over her death, it was enough to take me down and realize how fragile a life can be. My only regret is that I have not paid enough effort get to know her more, and I envy those who knew her long enough to realize how beautiful her soul was. In the year 2013, I have lost a friend, but heaven has gained a new angel, and I pray that she will watch over us as we march forward, and I pray that her family will be fine and healed as soon as possible. I was never a religious person, but at this point of time, I choose to believe that she belongs in heaven now, so rest in peace, Hui Ching. You will be missed.
Most importantly, I have learned to reach for my dreams. I have learned that to have a different and better life, I have to do something different. So this time, instead of wishing for 2014 to treat me better, 2014, I'll treat you right.
Woah, this is a bloody long first post,
Well, it's a start.
-Kenneth
